Yeah, check that motivation thing because it's important. I wrote about this in my book. Gathering all the pictures of my about to be ex and I together and putting them in a shoebox and leaving them at his doorstep. On the way to the car, I realized what I was doing and threw the box into the trash bin. I was trying to keep him hooked, make him feel bad and get a response from him because any response, good or bad, was better than no response! I needed to know that this man who beat me, still cared. Screwy!

I think that it's good you're working through this on this site with the help available. That's a good way to get over it and him. Talk it out and vent until the feelings are gone. It works and we're here for you!