Mixedmetaphors, I do sincerely care and could read your pain between the lines. I hate the sound of despair in womens words. I truly hope and pray that your heart lightens and your spirit soars then and only then can you begin to truly heal. There is so much love in this group of women and right now it is aimed where needed most. I never knew I could have so many sisters. Please don't hesitate to share your feelings, we have all been there in one way or another. May God Bless You my sister....