Sugaree, what a revelation. Some psychiatrist say that all fo our bahavior stems from what we learned in childhood and our reactions to things in the present are really just triggers to what happened previsouly.

I don't think your situation has to be a doomed one. You know this is what you do and knowing is half way there. It might take a while for you to learn how to change those thoughts or make yourself more aware of those thoughts when you meet someone, but I think it's doable.