I was hesitating coming online to see if anyone replied to my rant. Thank you all so much. I'm getting comfortable this time around. I'm very sensitive and introverted. Hard to find a friend to confide in who genuinely understands and doesn't placate me or make me feel that I am a complainer or self absorbed. I thought I'd be better at expressing myself this way but I was still afraid I couldn't make anyone see what I was hurting about. I have a lot more to share. Can't do it all at once but now that I know you guys are here, I'll be back.