Smile, it must have been the drugs because you are the last person I would think might have suicidal thoughts. Good for you to recognize what the cause was and continue to say no.

Keeping busy and trying in some small way to reach out to others is often the only way to get our mind off ourselves when living in pain.

I do believe there comes a time after living with pain too long that it might be good to give in to an anti-depressant. It's not good to get so far down that you have a hard time getting back up again. When most medications are prescribed appropriately they can help us.

Smile, remember this is only a stage in your life. This too shall pass. Until, feel free to come and whine with us.