Lil, I have to remind you that according to our Community Guidelines which all of us agreed to when registering in these forums:
"Profanity and symbols for profanity are forbidden."

Sorry for the reminder. [Wink]

I know you're hurting and I don't want to delete your post because many of us in here are keeping up with your posts, praying for you, and supporting you the best we can. But the next time I'll have to delete the profanity. Hope you understand.