Joyce, you are on my mind. Lots of prayers for you and your family.

I hope this helps:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God transcends all undersatnding, will guard your hearts and minds in Jesus Christ.
Phil.4:6-7

I hope this doesn't sound overly simplistic. I thought it may give you some peace that the Lord is in charge and cares for you and your family first and foremost. He doesn't want you to worry...only pray.

Worrying is treachorous for the mind, body, and soul. One worry quickly becomes two, then, three, than a pattern. Instead, try to say one prayer, then two, then three... He will comfort you.

As soon as I pass through those pearly gates I am going to ask him Him why children have to suffer. It hurts me so!