Dear smile, jj, and songbird,
Thank you all - you said just what I needed to hear this week. I truly DO trust God in my heart but sometimes my emotions get the best of me just before a test like this - I guess because twice before it was bad news and it was devastating both times, but particularly the one time we expected that the treatments had worked and found that they had not. It's hard to turn off those doubts but I know that's what I need to do. I will continue to think positive thoughts and speak positive words. Thanks again.