Next Friday, Oct. 7th I will be in divorce court trying to get a judge to have my soon-to-be-ex help pay the bills that have been incurred over the past year that he has been gone. I am asking for specific prayer for the following:
1. Favor with the judge on my behalf.
2. The courage to speak boldy if I have to (this has been an abusive relationship)
3. That I don't get flustered and forget details, dates and amounts.
4. That God's Hand is in the decision process.
5. For God's continued protection and provision for me and my son.
6. That God does what ever He has to do to make sure my soon-to-be-ex husband's heart is right before it's too late.

Thank you. Now on to something better--Praise reports!

I have been dwelling on the problems too much and God has spent the weekend reminding me of just how much He has done over the past year.

1. A year ago today I found out my husband was downloading child porn off the internet and that the sheriff would be serving a search warrant and searching our home for evidence of his criminal activity. That day I was a zombie. Completely numb on the outside and dying on the inside. I went to bed that night thinking I wouldn't be able to deal with it and thought (fleetingly) about suicide. God has been faithful to keep me. He has truly quieted me with His love. Zeph 3:17
2. I had no car! I prayed that God would bring me a vehicle and one 1/2 weeks later I received a call from someone stating that they were thinking of buying a new car and would I want their old one??! God has been faithful to provide for my needs.
3. My mother passed away in December of last year, two month after all this happened with my husband. I didn't know how I would make ends meet, but at the last minute mom made a change in her will and I received her life insurance money. Through her God has provided miraculously. I had to sit down over the weekend and make a list of expenses incurred over thepast year-all marital debt. If I had seen that figure in the beginning I would NOT have believed God capable of providing such a large amount! But God was faithful to provide.
4. A few weeks after being confronted about his child porn activities, my husband also confessed to being gay. his first encounter was in high school and he has been 'confused' ever since. I thought I might die from the pain and realization that all the struggles all these years came down to his problems with sex. (he always blamed me)At times the pain of knowing the whole marriage has been a lie are almost too much to bear but then God reminds me that He will never leave me nor forsake me. He loves me so much that He captures each of my tears in a bottle. I am learning a new depth of love for my Lord through this.
5. At every turn I thought 'today is the day' that I won't be able to get through, get by, or make ends meet, yet that day has never come. God has truly been there every step of the way, clearing the path as my Provider, Protector and Kinsman-Redeemer.

I hope this encourages each of you today.