Thanks Dallasgal, its hard not being there with him every day or being there now. I just feel like i failed them as a parent. Anyway, I was told this morning by someone in a chat room that I had a self pitying personality.So i will stop griping ,lol. But at the same time she gave me a number of a company that might be able to help me get a job, so i guess you take the good with the bad. But those here are the ones whos opinion and friendship i value Thanks for being there.

Deb