I just re-read this entire thing, and I am feeling really melancholy tonight. My father hasn;t been feeling very well lately and has been sort of hiding it from everyone. We went to my (Tim's) nephews' 50th birthday party today and he just wasn't himself. I am so scared--I just lost Tim and my mother within about a year and a halfs' timeframe a bit more than three years ago. Dad just isn't being himself. He said his doctor told him that he isn't feeling tip-top due to the meds that he is taking (a beta-blocker and Lipitor) to keep him from having a heart attack or a stroke, so he wants to stop taking them. He says if he can't live with the side-effects of the drugs, then he'd rather have the consequences when-ever they come and live the way he wants to until then. So, here I am to lay my worries at your doorsteps, ladies. I am NOT ready to lose my father....I can't bear the thought...