Dianne, I'm sorry you experienced something traumatic. I was concerned when you said your colitis was flaring up, which, as you know, can be related to stress. Yes, you do help women every day. Try to make yourself go to the counselor. Even if you are not ready what do you have to lose by just keeping the appointment with the counselor? You have nothing to lose, except the hold this event is having over you. I know you need to be patient with yourself, but if you are suffering from PTSD, then you also know you have got to go. Please try. Love and Light, Lynn