I know it is a waste of time to be depressed about it, but I am. You don't know how long I've been waiting to do something else. I don't know what the heck that is, but there's something there...Two different times I wanted to open a Catholic bookstore, both times I got pregnant. I love my children so much, but I don't feel I can do this again. I know God will get me through it, but I can't be happy right now...