suzieq, I want to mention again that I have seen great strides since your arrival to BWS. I beleive God is at work in you.

Might I recommend something? Many summers ago I began a gratitude journal.

When I first began, I could only think of a couple things to jot down. As time marched on, I came to realize that we can truly give thanks in all things and I couldn't stop listing my praises. It's a life changing exercise. It trains your mind to look for the good in everything.

I hope you'll give it a try.

I'm so glad you're here.