Jday, it was interesting to note this phrase in your post: "beyond tears." And this: "guilt’s sorrows and fears of their past." and this: "Their loved ones mean nothing to them." Put some of these words together and you get the phrase I wrote in my book that is the core of my story: "It saddens me beyond my tears that love was lost within the fears." Jday, I don't know who you are or where you came from, or what your motive is for posting. But I have been there and back. And so have a few others on this site, at least everyone knows someone who has suffered from debilitating depression. I don't know if I could take 4 more pages of your psychiatrist's words without remembering all too clearly how far gone one is during a depressive episode. I hope that you have received help and that you are not suffering thus. Love and Light, L

[ October 29, 2005, 01:04 AM: Message edited by: Lynnie ]