Lil,

I can empathize with you on this issue. My husband and I had to put our beautiful collie, Lady to sleep because we could find no other way. We tried to find her a home, but couldn't. I cried buckets but I can understand why you're having a hard time--you are protecting yourself from pain because you've had too much.

Try and let your emotions come forth--don't push or pressure it, just let "everything be" and put this grief in the Lord's hands. He will comfort and you and give you His wonderful peace.

God Bless..