Lil,
Glad to hear you are getting help. Do you have another appointment set up?

I think the best thing you can do for yourself now is to take those long walks and remove yourself form the environment you are living in. Everyone needs to feel loved and from the sounds of it, nobody is helping in that household to give you any affirmations or feelings of love.

Did you feel better when you were out and about? If so, do it more often. Go to the library and read, research, write, smile at others, chat with the librarians, and just remove yourself from Raul a bit.

Also, don't know if you are inclined to go to the local church and see if there is any type of volunteer work you can do. SOmetimes just getting our minds off our problems for brief periods of time can be helpful. Plus you'll be meeting new people who will appreciate you for who you are.

Just my thoughts. Hope it helps. Meantime, I'm covering you in prayer Lil.