Well, I will tell you that modern pharmaceuticals are a wonder for me and mine. My husband, who had a terrible childhood due to his fathers' abuse, was finally put on meds after his cancer diagnosis at 46 and until the day he died he swore that if he had had that medication in his younger days, he would have been able to cope. When my mother and husband were diagnosed and were both dying, my doctor put me on Paxil and it was a lifesaver. My father was on something for a few years after my mother died and it helped him immensely. My only suggestion is that you go to a psychiatrist to be diagnosed and medicated, because the general physician can and will just medicate away, but the psychiatrist will help you find the root of the problem and solve that along with the meds.