you are really both so right, it is a demon I will learn to live with, and get help dealing with. So much old baggage and that is no way to go into the golden years, with those old chains around the spirit. There are way too many bigger weinies to roast, and I do feel so guilty, there are so many more that deal with so many other more pressing, horrible, things.. I was just feeling really out of my skin when I posted, just really annoyed at my body, and very low. I went ahead, donated everything that didn't fit, went to the thrift stores and got a few pieces that do, and that was a good balm and bandaid for my low self esteem. I know I need help with it, and Moutain ash is very astute. Wish me well, if you would...it's going to get better for sure.