Hold on to those good memories Orchid. The good hopefully will eventually overtake all else, even the initial pain and shock of losing your sister in this most tragic way.

I know my mother is in a better place. And your sister is there too. I know the souls that have gone before us are lifted and filled with a joy that we here on earth have never experienced the likes of. Hold on to that thought, Orchid. It will lift you and carry you through.
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A friend is a gift you give yourself.
-- Robert Louis Stevenson