So much sadness, I wish I could hold and heal everyone.

Judy and EagleHeart, I'm sorry you both still grieve from the way your Moms were treated. When we put a certain trust in the medical establishment to heal us or a loved one, it's especially bitter that those whom we trust let us down.

Yonuh, perhaps your conflict comes from grieving, not the flawed man you divorced long ago, but the man whom you once had hope in. Even though your emotional hope in him died a long time ago, his physical death seals the end of that hope.

Orchid, I'm so sorry for your sister's suicide. All the "what if we knew how bad it was, and what if we did something" is wasted guilt for something you really didn't know. Sudden grief is the hardest, because you had no time to prepare. That, added to your father's deteriorating health, is a huge burden for you to bear. Add that to the isolation of moving to a new town by yourself. My heart goes out to you.

Mustang, hang in there. Even if the people in your life are shi-s, your horses love you and so do we.