Thanks for letting me vent. Things do just keep piling on these days. No new news on Kate...Nancy, somewhere in the long conversation last night I heard about stents...she had the heart attack Saturday night, but they knew she wasn't in a life-death situation, so were waiting until more tests had been done before letting everyone know...the news so far is good...she's in very good hands (6 specialists last count) because she's in the hospital she used to work in (she's a nurse) and is much beloved there. So I'm relieved, but still scared at the fragility of life. One day you can have everything, a rich and full life, and the next, nothing, it's all gone. That's how I feel. My life was once so rich and overflowing with family and love and laughter. Now it has shrunk down to my husband and his daughter. And none of it is my fault. The crap that's happening in various sectors of my life has been initiated/triggered by and between other people, but I keep having to deal with the agony of the fallouts because of my connections to the people involved. One by one they're all disappearing out of my life and there's nothing I can do about it, because all of the quarrels/situations are between other people and I can't interfere without doing even more damage. I'm sure it will all work out.

In the meantime, I'm struggling to focus on what is, but somedays (like today) it's just harder to keep my head above the waters.