Vicki, I can understand your anguish, but would dare to tell you that you are INFINITELY more than your writing, and INFINITELY more than this struggle you're in right now. Somewhere inside of you, you know that, you know that you are worthwhile and spectacular just because you exist...writing is the icing on the cake and your expression of self, but it's not the totality of who YOU are...YOU are a bright and shining light, a candle raging in the night. Right now you feel voiceless, but this too shall pass, and when it does, YOU will still be you. And don't forget the power within the wounded healer...when you have walked in the darkness, the words you speak to others also trapped there carry much more light and healing power...everything contains a golden nugget of learning and self-evolution which is meant to help us fulfill our purpose and our desire to help others. There is nothing empty here...it all weaves together an ever-evolving YOU that will speak more power and more light than ever before. So try to hold on to the recognition that you are infinitely MORE than what you're going through right now, and that what you're going through right now is a goldmine - reach in and find the golden nuggets of evolution...they're there.