I, too, have great difficulty growing older. Especially knowing that I'll be alone.....no children/grands to have in my later years to enjoy and be around and dote over.

Although DH and I do our best to eat as healthy as we can (except for chocolate), one just never knows. Having had cancer all around my family (mother, aunts, grandmother), that leaves a bit of concern, too.

Since I never feel old enough to be the age that a grandmother would be...heck, I still get shocked that friends my age have kids! In my mind, I'm still not "old enough" to be a parent. It's sad to admit but I guess I'm still in "waiting" mode, yet it never happened. My head still has not grasped the fact that I'll never be a mother.

People, too, get shocked at my age (hey, it's the Shea Butter...what can I say??), but sometimes my body sure doesn't move like it used!

Funny how the mind can play games on us.