I know I'll never stop missing my Dad. I don't want to.

But, when do I become myself again?
I use to join in at work all the time, usually having my friends laughing at something I've said. Have always been the jokester more or less---just enjoy making everyone laugh.

But, now I just go to work,
stay to myself,---try to put in a word here or there,
but it doesn't come easy anymore.
Will it?
Have I changed forever?
I miss me.

Home life is just as hard, trying not to bring everyone else down is a chore. I'm trying tho.