The past is the past...we cannopt change it one ioda.
What good is there in looking back?
You lock into what you cannot change again and again, and like Ladybug mentioned can turn into depression.

Start with today, look forward to what you can change.

You have so much love waiting to escape into a child. Why not adopt, if that's not possible... Big Sister, foster family, day care work...the possibilities are endless.

College is not out of the picture...you can do anything you set your mind to do.

Love to you...