My mother died almost 5 years ago after a year-long battle with cancer. Then 2 years ago my step-dad (who was more of a dad to me for 25 years) died after a 3 month battle with cancer. Today, I recieved a final payment from their trust fund. It was the second of two small payments and came as a surprise. My brother was the executor of their trust and, if you are familiar with trusts, the money comes from a checking account in the name of trust.

I look at that check, see my mom and dad's names and know it is the LAST thing from them I'll ever get and once again I'm reduced to tears. I didn't expect this ... not the money nor the reaction. It's as if I must say goodbye to them all over again. And there is a part of me that does not want to cash that check. Yet, that check arrived in answer to some serious prayers about our finances.

Both Mom and Dad are together in Heaven and I know I will see them again. I do not understand why I'm filled with such sadness and cry.

It is hard to have to say goodbye again.

Hurting and confused, Francine