CEJ your mother is now your own personal Angel watching over all of you from heaven. It is so hard to have such a tragedy in your life when you are so young. You said your dad is changing, changing how? Remember dear he is suffering too and even though he is the father he is scared and feeling alone. Do your best to comfort him and your brothers, they are males and do not take tragedy well. We are women, yes you too are a woman and we are the nurturers. We will pray for you and your family and know that we are here for you. Use my email if you need to talk or if you need advice of any kind. We ladies here are moms and grandmothers and are here to listen and/or advise. God loves you, speak to him often and he will listen...