Nevadaangel, I'm sorry you're feeling so out of sorts. Big milestones can do that to a person. I know that I sometimes feel restless, as if there's more I should be doing, but can't quite get a handle on what it is. For me, it's a sense that life is rushing on, and I sometimes feel I can't keep up. At those times, I just take a day to reflect on what it is that's making me feel that way - writing helps. If I just start writing with no goal, I am amazed at what appears on the page (or screen)! Then I get back to normal and life goes on - sometimes with a new sense of purpose or a new goal.
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