Thank you so much for all your replies here up to now..I am going to read and reread them again because my mind is whirling..altho my money status brings me back to stillness like a rock..there is reality there. I have to see to it that I can survive moneywise and still have some over to do alittle of what I want to do..but no big things..that will probably tax my economy too much..

Mountain Ash.."not being at work means recreating a circle..one that is acceptable and kind. I have done this". Now that kind fo hits the nail on the head for me, I think. Thank you!
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