Bad doctoring scares the bijeeezus out of me. We are so immersed in heavy duty doctors now that a certain amount of trust must be required or get your own medical degree that it is scary.

I try to use instincets or intuition to ell me where to place my trust. That does not mean that I don't spend days holding back the tears because I got information that I don't know whether is true or not.

Our internist, whom we trust and trun to frequently, told us that he thought John's cancer was benign (prior to surgery) and that we should just go on living. Instinct told us to just keep looking for info. and the internist put us in touch with the premiere pancreatic surgeon in the world. So he did help but his initial advice would have killed John by now. Scary thought.

Faith is what I am running on. When humans fail you that is all you have anyway huh?

Lynn