Got my 1st speeding ticket in 12 years. Speeding 89 in a 60. So upset. I was on 'vacation' Thursday, yet called in, cat and dog coughed up, cleaned and sped off. Got ticket. So upset at Myself. $440 down the drain. Officer says if I show to court he'd reduce the points.

Will this hurt on background checks for employment applications? Insurance increase? How long on record?

Officer was very snide and rude. I 'checked' on his background and he has a history of being rude and 'entrapping' others, yet no disciplinary actions.

I'll just need to own up to it, show up for court and hope for the best.

I was just getting ahead financially and go and do something stupid like this.

Hope this is a life learning experience. For instance, I'll not answer business calls no longer -- those calls can go to voicemail. Those calls can go unanswered. I'll not be at the beck and call of those who do not plan accordingly.

Also, I still carry a lot of anger from the past (ex-husband and abuse related). This anger disrupts my present, i.e., procrastination, inability to think clearly, decision making, memory, etc.

I'll let it go, learn to live in present, and not allow fear to rule my life.

Thanks for allowing me to vent.