Chow, Keep breathing. You are so very brave. Lots of things will change for you as you move away from the life you used to live. Numbness is pretty normal during therapy, especially when you deal with big traumas. So is feeling lost. I remember thinking at some point during my own therapy, "OK, this man has made me let go of 90% of my beliefs about my life and who I am. Now what????? What do I put in the hole that's left?"

But it came. Slowly the power came to be my own person, to trust in a Higher Power. I'm still learning, but I've gotten to the point where I enjoy the journey.

HUGS