Welcome, PretiP. And thanks for posting so honestly.

You have had some major changes in your life lately, so I beg of you to take care of yourself. And I agree with Jane about talking to the social worker. A third party with no agenda is often the best person to help sort out matters.

I understand hating your life right now. The feeling of being overwhelmed in life is exhausting. Please find some time to do something that makes you laugh. Chatty has posted a video link (I believe the thread says Pee before you read this) and it has many of us laughing. Even 5 minutes a day of laughter can help a small bit.

I am living in a life that is overwhelming me, right now, and I do a smiling meditation each morning before I get out of bed. I just lay there and smile the biggest smile I can for a few minutes. It sounds silly, but it does help start the day out a little bit nicer.

Please stop back and let us know how you are doing. You might also want to visit a few of the other threads and get to know some new friends here.