Thank you all so much for the posts. Your strength and good wishes have brought me, at least, into a sitting position. I made a leap and called an old therapist friend of mine and will see him at the end of the week. It's so odd that this visit knocked me back. You were so kind to let me know it's okay to feel this way...at least for a bit. I haven't had "divorce flashbacks" in years and was totally caught by surprise on this one. Happy new year to all you and thank you for being my blessings today.