Thank you so very much for your replies. I'm still not sure how this forum works so I hope this is received. I did manage to get dressed today--even make up, but had panic attack in grocery store and had to come home. This is so sureal and I feel like such a loser for whining. God, if I could just get it together. Had call from my eldest son this am. Happy to hear from him until he told me where he was...with Dad and his girlfriend in Cleveland. If my face goes further into the poo, I'm going to start throwing it.