I too felt your post deeply moving.
I will process and answer later.Sometimes this universe stops what we want to do for our greater good.
I have another part of my life I have not shared(As many others ill have too)I am not ready to share this .Nor do I know if this is the right place.
I admire your courage dancer and sensed from the start of your posts a strong woman.Let the lovely people here help you..as you help others being here.
mountaina sh