once a weeks a fair bit and then when you add it all together thats a lot of tears. i bet it dose play havok with your sences of self-worth or esteem. i feel soar for you that you dont feel valued or loved by him.

with cheeking out the house prices and nursing homes it sounds like your potenciallie trying to determine how your future life would be in that new town without him? as a certinety.

Its worth a thought towards a new life if your as unhappie as you are and think its beyond repaire. ie for him to change his ways or for you to react diffrentlie to his behaviour.

big desisions for you to make hope that jointlie the varring advice you get heer will aid you at this time.

Longing for femal companie and fun like those woman were having is not a bad thing...think most women benefit from frends and female connections and conectivness weather married or single. I know frends like that and fends heer make a diffrences to my life