You summed up how you survived and how you managed with 3 simple words..."I loved her"...
that's what life is, always has been and always will be about - LOVE. That "someone" that's been helping you is God, because God IS love. He loves you even more than you loved Nik, if you can only imagine. Not only does He love you, He loves THROUGH you. That's why He trusted you with His Nichole. [Smile]

((HUGS))