foundhervoice, I too am struggling on the backside of the divorce proceedings. I too find myself lost in feelings that are making me angry with myself. Who cares if he went on and remarried--even though he admitted to me he was gay! It makes me mad that I care!

It just hurts that this person that I am unable to fully let go of--went on and remarried-had obviously been dating her the whole time he was song and dancing me to get me to back off the divorce...all those months of emotional rollercoastering and he was dating someone else... It just proves he didn't love me, has no real feelings and I believe is incapable of a real relationship.

How can someone with so many obvious issues date someone else if they were truly dealing with those issues?

I too, look at men and think, will I ever? could I ever? I pity the man who attempts to ask me for a date--the screening process they will have to endure will surely scare them all away.

I am angry for feeling the need to cry for this man, to pray for this man, who now sits in prison (child porn) who obviously threw away our 24 yrs marriage and family--for what? physical intimacy with fantasy pictures of children and rendevous with men? Who 2 months after confronted was already dating this other woman? How can I still be attached emotionally, when is this attachment going to end.

I feel the ned to confront him--to ask him, was it worth it? was it worth what you have lost? do you even realize what you've lost or did you just rush out and replace us with another wife and built in family? But I can't. This part of me that needs closure will never happen.

When will I truly be free to live again? I too feel the need to cry, but the tears have dried up. I do admit that I am much better today than I was months ago--I am even better than last week, but when will I feel whole again?

You ladies who have survived divorce after a long marriage--can you honestly say there comes a day when you feel whole again? Of do you just learn to move forward and live? Does anyone have any insight for us on this?

Foundhervoice, I haven't been very encouraging, but I wanted you to know that I am also walking the same walk as you are--still. Together we ARE stronger, tomorrow WILL be a better day. I know it and you know it too. The Lord hasn't gotten us this far to let us down now!