foundhervoiceatlast, your post brought me to tears a couple times. I can tell the burning passion you have for those two boys of yours and it makes me sick that all of you have to go through this due to the selfishness of one person.

You are doing an excellent job of trying to find that balance for them and yourself. You are smart to get him the help he needs by speaking to someone outside the situation. Do you have someone to speak with?

I have total confidence in you. Your head is screwed on tight and you will continue to do what is best for your boys. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Relish in the fact that sonny boy came to you by bike in the morning. That's a dear thing for any teenage boy to do. He loves you and he knows you love him. That means so much!