Mom died. At around 4:15 pm. Dad and my oldest sister was w/her.

Why do I remember her and miss her do deeply? I was 18. At the time she died, I was working and they did not want to come to work to tell me. So, I got home to a somber house...Dad gave me the news. He was standing at the top of the stairs and said, "She's gone".

Even though she was sick for a few years, and bed-ridden since the day before my high school graduation, (she could not attend), she was still "there". It was so hard to see her in pain. A strong woman...ALWAYS there for her four children and husband. So many loved her for her whit, great sense of humor and just the way she made friends. I want to believe I am like her.

Here I am at 51 years old and still crying for my mother. She left me at an age when I was just not ready for her to be gone. I need, and still need, her to "raise" me. The be the adult woman that she was. Although she was 9 days short of her 43rd birthday, she was 'mature' to me. Well, I guess after having had four children and married over 20 years by then, that does mature a woman!

But I miss her so much. I know Dad does, too. Even though he's remarried for nearly 28 years now. She's NOT MY MOMMA!!

Hello Di, this is so sad. I am sorry for your deep deep loss. It never goes away. Your mom died way too young. Lynn

Di, the yearning for your mother is still a child's yearning. She was taken much too soon from you. You have so much love to give. Hopefully your grandchildren will carry the fruits of your love some day.

Di, from getting to know you hear, it sounds like you have several of her qualities. Don't sell yourself too short. Bless you.