Feeling funny, freaking out

Hello friends, I feel funny for asking for prayers. I hold people in prayer, but I don't think I know how to receive prayer. I am freaking out. So I am reaching out. I also hate to sound like a victim, but I do feel as though I've reached my limit. As you know from the "lying is cheating" thread, my H and I have had our share of concerns regarding our relationship. And, as you know from the "caring for our parents" forum, you'll read that my mother has terminal cancer and Alzheimer's. In the meantime, my H got fired. And I re-entered a former career in real estate. I'm still, always, working on my Project for TEARS, and I have a presentation to give next week. But there is no income! How do we live without an income? I do not want to have to put my own house on the market; we will not even break even. We are living on savings and faith. I'm nervous that without health insurance I will have to cut back on my anti-depressants. My H is medicated too. I'm rambling. Before I go on and on, please, if you have a chance, if you want to, a prayer for my H and I would be OK with me. Love and Light back at you, L, PL

Of course I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I firmly believe that things always work out the way they are supposed to, even if we don't realize it at the time.

Love and cyber-hugs coming your way.

Lynnie,
You have my prayers at all times . There is an Alz web site that I can give you . www.alz.org they have a chat room and a forum to go onto to ask questions about Alz .I will keep you and your husband in my prayers for a new job and health.

All the best ,

Renee

Lynnie, you're always in my heart too...I'll keep you especially close in my prayers tonight and throughout the coming days. What a tough road you're on right now! Must be so overwhelming at times...remember to close your eyes, take a deep breath and know, KNOW, that you are loved more than you can imagine, stronger than you think you can be and you're not alone. Feel our loving care, our support, our prayers lifting you up in those moments when you feel most overwhelmed by it all...we're there, God's there.

I'm going to finish this post because I want to go find the lyrics to a song that has been helping me through my grief...I'll be right back...

This is called "Desert Rose" by Whiteheart...it has brought me immeasurable comfort over the past few months, especially the part where they sing "He will hold you"...

Lost in a windswept land
In a world of shifting sand
A fragile flower stands apart.
There on that barren ground
You feel like the one
Trying to serve Him with all your heart.

And you wonder, wonder
Can you last much longer?
This cloud you are under -
Will it cover you?

Desert rose (desert rose)
Don't you worry, don't be lonely,
Heaven knows, Heaven knows -
In a dry and weary land, a flower grows,
His desert rose

Sometimes holiness
Can seem like emptiness
When you feel the whole world's laughing eyes;
But if it's a lonely day,
Know you're on the Father's way,
He will hear you when you cry...

And He will hold you, hold you,
Your Father will hold you;
He will love you, love you
For the things you do.

Desert rose (desert rose)
Don't you worry, don't be lonely
Heaven knows, Heaven knows,
In a dry and weary land, a flower grows,
His desert rose

Desert rose...

PL,

Consider my best thoughts, prayers and wishes yours! It's hard not to look at the circumstances as they are and become overwhelmed. I will pray that you are able to envision the beautiful gifts that God has all lined up in pretty satin boxes for you...and that as you hold that vision...they start to arrive one by one and two by two.

Take care of you!

Lynnie, I am here too. I will keep you in my hopes and prayers that your load will be lighter and your days will be brighter,Amen.
Just remember....we really love you.

Lynnie, my heart goes out to you; those are just too many hardships at once. That would floor anyone.

That's wonderful that you are doing house showings! I have a feeling something will come through, and I'll pray that it will! Maybe you know this allready, but it took me a while to use one of the best resources to get new homes to sell, and that was from the customers looking for new homes. Sorry if I'm pointing out the obvious, I'm sure you are doing everything just right.

Did you say your Hubby is a cook? Has he ever thought of looking for a job at a party service? We have friends that have a party – restaurant service, and he is forever seeking cooks. Maybe by you too?

Sending you a warm hug, and will say a prayer for you and your family.
Hannelore

Lynnie, I just sent some positive thoughts/prayers for you. Never forget how much we all love you.

This is the storm before the calm. You'll make it through just fine.

You know Hannelore you have a point there if Lynnie's husband is a cook there is catering serves and hotels and all kinds of places he can go to cook. At the mean time he can apply for unemployment to help out . Just some thoughts

Keeping you in my prayers always,

Renee

Lynnie, you have every right to ask for prayer at this time. We all go through stages where we require more specific prayer. I am happy to hold you and your husband in prayer. Please stay in touch. Your BWS sisters love you.

First off, Lynnie, I will pray for you and we'll all pray for each other. You ladies are wonderful. I also have a prayer request. My husband lost his job last week. He had just gotten his full release from workman's comp after an injury in January when he broke 3 ribs, then had complications....
Anyway, he's been working, just lighter duty. A friend had made a comment to me a few months back when asking how Richard was doing. He told me to be prepared because chances are when workmen's comp releases him for regular work duty, they would let him go. He said he'd seen it happen many times. Well, he turned in his doctors note Monday, Tuesday was his day off, When he went in Wednesday, they let him go. It was very upsetting. We have been in the middle of a horrible year. He had surgery in December for another problem, had just gotten over that when he had the accident. We had briefly separated for awhile at that point, (another long story). He had complications from the ribs, blood filling his chest cavity causing two hospital stays and 2 surgeries. Anyway, my work has been slow too, so I am looking for other avenues of income. Then to make matters worse, Thursday night when my son got up to go to the bathroom, he noticed a lot of water coming from under the bathroom sink, the bathroom quickly flooded, the hallway, part of my bedroom and a little in my daughters room, we managed to contain it by that point. We were up all night with the wet vac sucking up water, cleaning up the mess. We spent all day Friday and Saturday cleaning up the mess, shampooing carpet! I will say, one bright spot in this is that my husband is very handy around the house and was able to fix the problem without calling a plummer, so that saved us a bundle! Then to add insult to injury, after getting a couple hours of sleep in the wee hours Friday, I woke up and went to the front living room where Lula, our dog had a seizure and had "an accident". I wanted to scream! What next?! So, it was not a good week. There is another issue we are dealing with, but I don't have time to get into that one right now. Let me just ask for prayers because we really need them right now! One thing that I am truly concerned about is income, I am really adamant about homeschooling, I don't want to put the kids back in Public School. We'll work it out one way or another though.
I have to run now, just wanted to make a quick visit to the forum to visit my lady friends and see what everyone is up to. Thanks ladies!
gerri

Ladies, you both have bucket loads of prayers and good wishes coming from me too.
Please try only to focus on the outcome you want. Think it, imagine it, feel it, believe it! It will lift your spirits, and you may be sooo amazed and grateful for what happens next!

As the song goes...
Lean on me, when you're not strong
I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on

Hang in there girls, we're with you.

Adding you to my prayers.
Mountain ash

I will definately keep you in my prayers. I know things seem bleak at the moment PL but God will see you through this.

L dies, you may think I'm nuts, but I heard from soemone who is pitching a new TV show and they are looking for boomers who have a midlife dream, soemthing they're burning to do. They will interveiw you to see if you are what they are looking for. If so, they set you up with your dream and film you and you are the show. This could change your financial situation in a hurry, or am I a pollyanna to beleive that? Email me if you are interested. NABBW members will be hearing specifics soon.

Thank you so much for your thoughts, prayers, poems, and suggestions. Gerri, I am sorry for all that you are going through at once! Sharon, you are in Australia, and "The Secret" had a publishing in Sydney. And the teachings of Abraham are mentioned in the acknowledgments section of "The Secret." Do you know Rhonda Byrne? Has this been mentioned in the BWS forums and I missed it? I've watched (and loaned) my copy of The Secret many times, as well as reading the book aloud with my husband. Dotsie, you are many wonderful things, but no, you are not nuts! You are that last person I would call "nuts." I have a dream...it's really not in real estate. It's all about my book and sharing my story to open lines of communication. My dream would be international publication and noteriety, and thus more awareness of the hope and healing that can occur after DV and CSA. My husband signed up for real estate school today. After reading the Secret. I don't know the correlation, and I don't care. Momentum is momentum! Love and Light, Lynnie aka Princess Lenora

geriie i don't know ya well yet but you touch my hart with your circumstances and prayer have just been done for you.

keep close contact with us, updated if ya can or just pop in to say hi and join the fun in heer, whiching ya well.

lynne dear sweet woman, i hope the hesitances for prayers wasen't about fearing you be ignored or rejected. I hold ya in high regard and i certine manie other woman do too.

your a tough wee cookie (in the sweetest of ways) your always kind and helpfull and considerate of others, in all you write and encouragment of others. I see you as a verie strong ladie,(most certinlie not a victum) saying that we all need comphort, love , sofness and sweetness, theirs no weekness or admitances of not being able to cope with the request, you onlie giving us lot a chances and an oppertunity to sat we love you and care about what your going through.......so thanks for that oppertunitie, prayers done as and before i typed this, and ya know they continue.

bigs huggs and cyers kisses on the cheek to you you hubbie and mom, and back to you again, double the huggs lol

please keep us infomrmed if ya have the time you inspire so manie with your attitude and how your coping with you circumstances. love ya loads.

Prayers going out for both of you. I will hold you both close in my heart.

Lynne and Gerri,

Hugs to both of you.

My husband lost his job when he was in his mid-thirties. We didn't know how we were going to make it, but we did.

After John went through a depression - just a month or so --he took a "stop gap" job so he could bring in some money and boost his self-esteem. Then, he started searching and found a good job that has been more satisfying than the one he lost!

I went back to work for the money. Did not like the job,
but I had to help.

It's a scary thing to face. But,know that this period in your lives will come to an end. And, it's very likely that each of your husbands will find better employment than they had.

It's going to be okay.

Really.

Blessing,
Emily

Forgot to address Lynne's problem with the meds.

There is a federal insurance program - COBRA - for people who have lost their jobs. Many employers fail to tell previous employees that this plan exists.

This plan was developed to extend health insurance post loss of job.

You will need to activate this plan asap.

If your husband's human resource dept. doesn't offer and explain this program to you, call your local social services office or your local employment office.

Also, remember, your husband is entitled to benefits, since he was terminated not by choice. I know many people don't want to collect unemployment benefits. But keep this in mind: your husband, you, your families have been paying taxes and a certain percentage of this money has gone into the unemployment fund. Now, it's your turn to receive some of the benefits.

(((((Lynne))))

Forgot to sign my name,

Blessings to both of you,
Emily

To answer Celtic's concern, I am reluctant to ask for prayers because there are so many who have needs. But then I realized that God is great enough to hear all prayers for all people, and that you boomer sister/angels are only too glad to give prayers. Thank you, PL

Prayers for you, Lynne...holding you in the light of the universe.
Casey

Lynn, I asked God that once: Don't you ever get tired of hearing me pray for everyone all the time? The immediate answer? "It's what I live for." I don't hold back anymore...I'm 100% certain that praying for one another is yet one more way we shine light into the world's darkness. No need is "too insignificant" to God if it's significant to one of His children. And His shoulders (and love) are big enough to hear, hold and answer every single one - in fact, I suspect that for God, it could well be a case of "the more, the better", because praying for one another translates into caring for one another, and the world can always use more caring.

Of course we're praying for you Lynnie...even if you don't ask! Have peace...

Eagle, I love your writing. It always touches my heart. You need to write a book from a Christian perspective about the heart of God.

Lynn, valleys are so tough, but there is often a mountaintop experience that follows. I'm praying for you while you're in the valley and lifting you to the next mountain. Count on it.

Hi friends! I'm back!
Eagle: I couldn't agree more with Dotsie. Your words are full of truth and wisdom!

God not only loves, but yearns for us to come to him with our problems, needs, gratitudes, etc. So many times, and in different ways, he bids us come to him. So,friends, please never be afraid to ask of him. Never be afraid to bring your burdens to him, never be afraid to express your deepest concerns, sorrows, mishaps,etc. His intrest for each of us is so great...

He is honored when we request of him big and/or "impossible" things. For in doing so, we recognize His ability, His power, His greatness and His inmeasurable love and caring for each of us.

Lynnie and Gerrbeck: I am saddened to hear the struggles you are facing. But the Lord has a way for each of you. He will provide and He will support you along the way. Keep trusting in Him. The God who made water flow from the rock in the desert, still opens fountains of blessings for his children in the deserts of uncertainties we face today. .

I will hold you both in my prayers, trusting we will see God's work and wonders in your lives!

Lynnie, our hindsight is 20/20, isn't it? We look back on situations and say, "Oh okay...so THAT'S what you had in mind for me, God." But for now, I'm sure it seems as if you're out there on that island all alone. You are not. You are surrounded by prayers and good thoughts from all of your sistahs here, and God is taking care of you, as we speak. TRUST is the keyword. Know in your heart that all is well, and will be.

Gerrbeck, has your hubby ever thought of advertising as a "handy-man?" Just a thought. He could do a flyer and put on there that no job is too big or too small, and that he is a honest man looking for an honest day's work. I bet he would be covered up! Especially if he put something like this: HEY BOOMER WOMEN...Are you tired of being taken for a ride? Need that washer fixed? Your pictures hung on the wall? Got a broken window that needs replacing? I'm your man!"

WHY NOT? We are taken for a ride by sooooooooo many sources. Why not give women the confidence to call on THE QUIET MAN. There you go. There's he's title. Word would get around, I guarantee you!

Love to you both!

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Gerrbeck, has your hubby ever thought of advertising as a "handy-man?" Just a thought. He could do a flyer and put on there that no job is too big or too small

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My hubby didn't even have to advertise...he started doing small repair jobs for neighbours, charging each one according to their financial ability, and through word-of-mouth, has been working steadily for years. In fact, he could easily have enough work to keep him going 24/7. He often has to say no because he can't keep up with the demands.

One of his major sources of handyman work is with immigrant families who don't speak much English...these are the people who often get scammed by contractors who take advantage of their limited understanding of the laws and language. Hubby often is called in to repair the shoddy work left behind by these unscrupulous so-called professional repairmen. He doesn't charge much and will often wait patiently for weeks or months to get paid, because many of these people can only afford to pay him in small installments, but in 10 years, he's never yet been scammed or not paid. He's built up such a solid reputation and grateful clientele, that he would have no problem translating that experience and reference into a full-time job if he needed to.