prayer request

Next Friday, Oct. 7th I will be in divorce court trying to get a judge to have my soon-to-be-ex help pay the bills that have been incurred over the past year that he has been gone. I am asking for specific prayer for the following:
1. Favor with the judge on my behalf.
2. The courage to speak boldy if I have to (this has been an abusive relationship)
3. That I don't get flustered and forget details, dates and amounts.
4. That God's Hand is in the decision process.
5. For God's continued protection and provision for me and my son.
6. That God does what ever He has to do to make sure my soon-to-be-ex husband's heart is right before it's too late.

Thank you. Now on to something better--Praise reports!

I have been dwelling on the problems too much and God has spent the weekend reminding me of just how much He has done over the past year.

1. A year ago today I found out my husband was downloading child porn off the internet and that the sheriff would be serving a search warrant and searching our home for evidence of his criminal activity. That day I was a zombie. Completely numb on the outside and dying on the inside. I went to bed that night thinking I wouldn't be able to deal with it and thought (fleetingly) about suicide. God has been faithful to keep me. He has truly quieted me with His love. Zeph 3:17
2. I had no car! I prayed that God would bring me a vehicle and one 1/2 weeks later I received a call from someone stating that they were thinking of buying a new car and would I want their old one??! God has been faithful to provide for my needs.
3. My mother passed away in December of last year, two month after all this happened with my husband. I didn't know how I would make ends meet, but at the last minute mom made a change in her will and I received her life insurance money. Through her God has provided miraculously. I had to sit down over the weekend and make a list of expenses incurred over thepast year-all marital debt. If I had seen that figure in the beginning I would NOT have believed God capable of providing such a large amount! But God was faithful to provide.
4. A few weeks after being confronted about his child porn activities, my husband also confessed to being gay. his first encounter was in high school and he has been 'confused' ever since. I thought I might die from the pain and realization that all the struggles all these years came down to his problems with sex. (he always blamed me)At times the pain of knowing the whole marriage has been a lie are almost too much to bear but then God reminds me that He will never leave me nor forsake me. He loves me so much that He captures each of my tears in a bottle. I am learning a new depth of love for my Lord through this.
5. At every turn I thought 'today is the day' that I won't be able to get through, get by, or make ends meet, yet that day has never come. God has truly been there every step of the way, clearing the path as my Provider, Protector and Kinsman-Redeemer.

I hope this encourages each of you today.

Thank you for sharing that Starting Over. You have been and will continue to be in my prayers. Your triumphs over adversity are truly inspirational.

You are living proof of God's love.

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starting over---what an appropriate screen name for you! You truly are! My prayers will be with you on your new journey of life. Many, many blessings to you and your family.

Starting over
You have been hurt, brought down but you are a survivor and somehow we learn that what we need we recieve
Blessings to you- show that strength within in court so you can continue to heal and grow and help your child

Starting Over, I too have been carrying you in prayer and will continue to do so, and will join my other sisters in special support for you next Friday (I'll be out of town and not online, but my prayers will still be part of the "where 2 or 3 are gathered in My Name").

Your story and survival are amazing and inspiring...somewhere down the road, when it's time, it might want to be told...as in a book? There is great power when "wounded healers" speak.

Dear Starting over:
What a beautiful testimony of God's faithfulness to those that wait upon the Lord! He has been your Shepherd, caring, guiding and providing each day. Thanks for sharing your experience. It will, without a doubt, inspire others.

I have to agree with Eagle's idea of a book down the road!

But above all, I want to let you know that I'll continue praying for you and your situation. Thou I won't be able to come online often, I"ll be praying for all boomer friends and their requests.

Continue trusting the Lord. He will give you the words you ought to speak. May His light shine upon you each day!

Starting over you will be in my prayers. I have gone through the seperation and am waiting for court date. My verse that i cling to in any struggle is Phil.4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I have found like you have that my God is greater than any problem I have and He always provides the greatest and the smallest need

snow, I'll keep you in my prayers as well.

Yes, I do plan to write a book. I have struggled with how to NOT write a tell-all type book and think I have found the answer. I am planning to write an inspirational romance (possible a series) the heroine goes through the challenges/realities of tragedy of this type and through it all finds that the Lord is her source of refuge, strength, provision, protection etc. In this way I can draw from teh experience without writing a tell-all. I just don't think I could write a tell-all without it becoming tacky or victimish.

the last thing I want is to be a victim any longer. Anyway, thanks all, please keep my in prayer for Friday, Oct. 7 10:30am and God will take care of the rest!

have a great day all!

PS One year ago yesterday I found out he was downloading child porn. I celebrated last night by going with 2 girl friends to a writer's workshop! I am moving forward PTL!

Starting Over, put me on the list for buying that book hot off the press! Sounds amazing!

I had to go through pretty much the same sort of fear about writing my story. I was so afraid that anything that I wrote would be tinged with too much bitterness, that I waited years to write, until the bitterness was gone. By the time Eagle (my book) came along, I had made peace with my past and was able to forgive and cherish my Mom. It made all the difference. The book would not have been helpful, even to me, if it had been written in that spirit of angry bitterness.

Your idea sounds awesome. Again, put me down for at least one copy!

Starting Over, please know you'll be in my prayers. This must be stressful.

I also had to heal before I started writing my book and even then, I hadn't planned on it being a book but was going to bind it and put it in the local shelter for women to read while there. God stepped in and this miracle took place that took my breath away. I'm still blown away by how it happened. So, you write that book!