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#50026 - 09/12/05 11:19 PM
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Registered: 06/30/05
Posts: 383
Loc: Illinois
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I wanted to ask everyone to keep me in prayer. I am really feeling the stress of the whole situation I am struggling to get out of. For those of you who don't know me, here's the scoop: husband of 24 years turned out to be downloading child porn off the internet (I found out when the sheriff served a search warrant--husband hasn't set foot in house since) Later he confessed to being gay as well. 2 months later my mother passed away after battling lung cancer. The divorce isn't final yet--almost a year. Have found out that the FBI and the Post Office will be pursuing prosecution of my husband. Husband hasn't helped pay a single bill since that aweful day. I am drowning in debt and house hasn't sold. With the increase in gas prices I scrambled and begged and borrowed more money to get an small and very cheap apartment for my son near his college campus--so now I am dealing with empty nest syndrome as well! I was doing pretty good but now with my son gone too...it's like too many battlefields to face at the same time--too many seasons to deal with. I can't concentrate at work--for the first time this morning I actually crawled back into bed--twice! I have no energy, no direction, no vision for my new, wide-open-make-it-whatever-I-want-it-to-be-future should be. I need God to give me clear direction. I need to be able to concentrate at my job before I screw up and loose it too....
I'd really appreciate the prayer cover. Thanks all.
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#50028 - 09/12/05 11:55 PM
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Registered: 06/03/04
Posts: 2830
Loc: Massachusetts, USA
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Dear Starting over: I am sorry for such a stressful situation you are in right now. I am praying for you and your family. Although not exactly the same situation, I know how it feels to have your castle crumble down, or so it seems. Please know that God has a purpose for you. I do pray he gives you strength, direction, new vision and courage to face each new day. We can have peace amidst the storm. He calmed the angry sea, and can calm the angry waves of deception, sorrow, stress and uncertainty you are now facing. I will continue to pray for you. Eagle's idea is great! Some down time may help you, if it is at all possible for you. I know that when we are in the middle of the storm it is hard to find some time to stop trying to survive. But even Jesus slept during the storm. His example shows there is nothing impossible. The master of the wind and all creation is there for you. Hear his voice speaking:"Peace, be still" to your heart. Give him your struggles and rest assured he will not forsake you! Blessings! [ September 13, 2005, 11:02 AM: Message edited by: Songbird ]
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#50031 - 09/14/05 11:37 PM
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Registered: 06/30/05
Posts: 383
Loc: Illinois
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Thanks all. No, I can't take time off work. I am a one-man office--no health insurance, no benefits. Can't afford to take time off anyway since he's not helping to pay bills. Funny, a vacation at the beach never interested me before, but now I can actually see myself lying on a beach somewhere.....
I have surrounded myself with family and church support--don't know what I would do without them--and you all!
No, I can't borrow against equity, have already racked up debt keeping bills paid, if I take equity to continue, won't have anything to pay back debt with--but it was a good thought.
Today's e-mail from him states that he isn't going to sign paperwork to reduce the price of the house. He is going to try to tie my hands again and I will miss the fall selling season. I didn't respond to him; I called the attorney and left a message demanding action. Don't know if it will get anywhere.
I also called the local paper and placed an ad looking for a woman to move in and share expenses. Maybe I can rent the master bedroom suite to a couple of college girls (campus nearby) with any luck I can get through the winter and put it back on the market in the spring....
He sent a text message to my son and a seperate one to me on Monday stating, "God still loves both of you and He is willing to forgive you"!!!!!???? Something's really wrong with him. Sin has taken over I guess, I wonder where the line is that God turns someone over to a reprobate mind. Anyone ever heard a teaching on that?
Thanks for the prayers ladies--I really need them. Have a great day!
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#50033 - 09/24/05 05:18 PM
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Registered: 09/20/05
Posts: 66
Loc: Cleveland, Ohio
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Sounds like you've had the strength in you all along! You went from crawling back into bed to finding the energy, direction, and vision you need to go on! All in 2 days time! Imagine the possibilities now! I applaud you for having the courage to think about yourself for once---there's only one way to go now...forward! You are already in my prayers.
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#50034 - 09/25/05 07:08 AM
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Registered: 07/14/05
Posts: 99
Loc: San Francisco
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If you need more support (and since you don't have health insurance) you might try attending a Twelve Step program like Al Anon (it's for family of alcoholics but great for anyone who is in a situation they can't control and feeling that their own life has become unmanageable). It's free ($1 in the basket if you have it), good people, lots of support. Also any local Family Service agency, Catholic Social Services, Lutheran Social Services--all provide professional help on a sliding scale basis. I've been in similar places in my life and even though I am a professional therapist myself found great strength in Al Anon. It's helped me through very tough times over twenty years, including facing the death of my mother (the nurses called and it should be today or tomorrow). Here in California, if people need to be off work, there is a State Disability program. I'm not sure there is anything similar in your state?? But my prayers are with you. Karen
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