Mustang, not that I want to use the forum for sales or solicitation, but may I recommend my book to you? I would do this privately but I see your email is not in your profile. Or, you can cruise through the Featured Author section here and look for April 2005. I think you'd be surprised and comforted to know that what you experience, you are not alone.
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