In "Fatal Addiction, Ted Bundy's final interview with James Dobson," Ted Bundy speaks of the dehumanization that he experienced as a result of being exposed to porn as a young man. He also spoke of the need for increasingly brutal images in order to achieve sexual gratification and how he ultimately began to act out the fantasies in the sadistic porn that he evolved to.
His intellect and the detached way he tells his story is terrifying, but enlightening. I felt that he may have been trying to use porn as an excuse for his horrific actions and certainly most men who view porn don't become mass murders, but I wondered if he was right about the dehumanizing effects of porn.

I guess that's just a footnote and may not apply to your situation hurtagnel, but porn certainly seems to be a powerful force in the culture of the twenty-first century.
Prayer may be the only anecdote and boomer prayers are being heard every day as I'm sure they are for you today.
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