No Sugar, it wasn't just you. I don't know why we go through the things we do, I just don't know. But I do know that we can be stronger for it - and able to help those among us that go through hard times too. Maybe they aren't as strong as we are, or maybe they don't know to cling to God for strength - in that way, our surviving can help them survive, too. (Maybe we would just be bored with a 'charmed' life and God knows that...) wishful thinking on my part?