i am young one on heer but i heer couse i love ya all lol.

i turned 40 in november, (yes a scorpio lolplezzzzzzzz don't hate me for that) my frend told me 40 was the new 50. Another frebnd left my companie after a night out shouting great and happie belate 30th! thing is turning 30 was a drama for me, 40 was no probes apart from fact my 4 neralie 5 yr old son keeps tell everyone my number (age) as its the same as his with a 0 ie i am 4 my mums a 4...0 fourtie lol. when i sit dowen next to him on the sofa he says "my your getting so big now!" becouse i tell him this with preide lol.

did i just go off on a ramble lol oppps.

i got new glasses recentlie, trying them on in the shop and talking to other custemers having a bit of fun and whishing i had a mate with me for a second oppinion, i was chatting to this women about 50 or so./ we chatted complimented each other on styles she just before leaving said " sure, don't know why i bothering to be fussie, who's looking at me anyway" my hart sank for her and for the fact this thing bleeding dose happen!

i also made te transision to something els internale being more value for me but now adays i have found myself wonderring weer my cheekbones and jawline went to and why thers not the same room above my eye for eyshadow thse days, also changies in skin means no more poweder (makes my lines perminent lol well more so) when i was young and i gess taking it for granted none of this mattered now its going, its udenlie becomming important.

witness this ladies! poppie on heer promised she buy me a face lift and a tummie tuck when she finished her studies and gets rich and famouse, (rich would be enough lol) rember she said it i just writting so you tell her off if she dose't keep her word in about 3 years lol

seriouslie i have pulled bits of my extra bits about and wondered if id actulie have the guts and peace of mind to go do something cosmetic in several years time, i don't know if i could.

iv a currentlie great hairstyle that dose't have me invisable but sometimes i do get the wrong type of attension lol and sometimes too much attension.

back to subject generallie i resent living such a youth focused culture, id love more positive and attractive trates assosiated with women and agein. falling that we are left with having to change our attitudes to looks or finding somethin within ourselfs thats valuable and uniquike. Can it trulie be done i wonder without a feeling of a consilasion prise becouse looks have gone.

has anyone had those types of surgerie?

i am ramblin as its now 9 on christmass eve morning and iv had 3 or 4 hours sleep so excouse me