Edelweiss and Meredith...tears are rolling down my face as I read your words and feel your kindness.

I will hold them in my heart as I mourn today. I would love to say I was kind and generous and understanding when he shared the news and I wasn't. I want to rip his face off and tear him shreds and I've already wished horrible things on him, then taken them back, then, well...I'm sure you get the picture.

I wish I had the luxury of time to mourn, I truly do. And I'm broke, out of work, and haven't had the physical strength or stamina to go for an entire day until the last 2 weeks. Which is what makes this even more painful.

And it wasn't a helluva easier when he said "you're the one who taught me I could have it all". Arghghgh.

Lots of love